A World Within

Life is just a chance to grow a soul

2009-01-07T00:58:00.020+09:00

Tuesday, 6 January 2009

If there was one thing I love about driving, it would the "me" time I never fail to enjoy. My favorites are the night drives on the freeway. The river view is simply beautiful although at a certain point it smells awful. As I approach the city taking the exit onto Mounts Bay road, I love the view of the lights that light up the night sky- high rise buildings standing majestic with an extra glow of pretty bright lights.The freeway was quiet- there was no traffic, no need to hurry. It felt as though I'm cruising - my car felt like the Flying Dutchman , floating downstream with the many passengers on board being my many thoughts. - so heavy but so tranquil. Tuned in to my favorite Sunshine FM but somehow, it feels more like noise rather than music. So I resorted to turning it off only to hear the symphony of silence - just right for tonight. No usual sing along.... or bobbing my head to the rhythm of catchy music but finely tuned to the beat of my heart.

The occasion couldn't be any better - very satisfied from Japanese dinner with Janice, cried buckets watching 'Marley and Me' and embarrassedly left the movies with puffy eyes and a stuffy nose (If I died, it would be the lack of oxygen but breathing through my big mouth saved me- seriously, I can't believe I cried over a dog) .

Perhaps it was an outlet for the pains of goodbyes- this is it- the 'farewell' week. First of the goodbyes -colleagues at work yesterday- check mark.

Amidst the whirlwind of emotions, my mind does what it does best - ponder and reflect, then came a thought. I was just thinking how life is metaphorically a drive on the freeway.

During office hours, it's usually busy and most people are hurrying to someplace it's a challenge to take your own sweet time when most people exhaust the speed limit of a 100km/h. Many are impatient overtaking at every opportunity. Strangely enough it can be quite competitive (trying to outdo the train *laughs*).

The pressure is on whether you like it or not and it somehow forces you to just go go go unless you are that sort of person who doesn't have a care about others as if you're the king of the road. On the fast lane, there is always that possibility we just might miss our exit off the freeway when our focus is not there.
Arthur Schopenhauer: Every man takes the limits of his own field of vision for the limits of the world.

Now, it's the same stretch of road except in the cool of the nights - time seem to slow down giving us allowance to really breathe in the beauty of our surroundings adorn by natures course which does not captivate us as much during the day. Often life is about the perspectives we choose to regard. Putting it into context - a competitive environment forces us to keep moving forward albeit the stress but the laid back drives are equally as important. Then comes the peak hours and we often get caught in the jam. The crawling traffic creates in us a sense of restlessness and to some a test of patience.
Living in a microwave generation where everything is almost instantaneous - waiting becomes excruciating but God's economy involves a fair bit of waiting for I believe there is a right time to be in the right place for the right plan. The beautiful thing is the whole process which molds us and builds our character.

A son asked, "Mom,how did I come to this world? Have you downloaded me?"

Anne Wilson Schaef: Life is a process. We are a process. The universe is a process.

Wednesday,7 January 2009

True to my instinctive knowing - I was awoken at 5am this morning by an incoming text message:

".....feel bad because I told you that I will buy the car but now I can't....".

Twenty five hundred anyone? with complimentary free windows and free wheels!

Everything in its time

2008-12-31T23:19:00.003+09:00

BLESSED NEW YEAR!

I shall be ushering new years in my dreams but will be sure to wake up on New Year's Day on the right side of the bed energized for work :)

I have tasted that the Lord is good and faithful through 2008 :)

"Scars makes us stronger for life"

Quote from The Curious Case of Benjamin Button :

Benjamin Button: I was thinking how nothing last, and what a shame that is.
Daisy: Some things last.

I hope 2009 will hold many new experiences for you!

Much love

New Year's Resolution 2009

2008-12-31T19:44:00.014+09:00

It's time for a fresh new start, a new beginning and hence the need for a list of resolutions.

1.Make more room for God

2.Spend time with parents at every given opportunity and take more pictures with them *dad looks as young as ever,cool and hip now - mum more beautiful and elegant*
3.Officially graduate in February – look good in regalia & graduation pictures = lose weight

4.Work with one of the Big Fours – work diligently and not look like “crap” after 3 years
5.Enrol for Professional Accountant Course – CA/ACCA/CPA

6.Buy my first new car – the Nissan and Corolla I had not counted (Parents still have to help with deposit while I pay installments leaving me to eat rice and ‘kicap’ everyday) *sigh*
7.Settle down in one place longer than 1.5 years – over the years, the longest I have been in one place is 1.5 years (time to stay long enough to build friendship and make longer commitments)

8.Join a gym with a pool + personal trainer + religiously work out- have always been a resolution but it is one I shall not give up on YET –lose ~~weight~~ fat , tone up and be healthy.
9.Love anything chocolate or sweet treats less- a whole lot lesser = pretty teeth10.Organise a trip to KK, Sabah and conquer Mount Kinabalu
11.Attend Chinese language classes – learn to speak first then will think of learning to write (hope it makes me less of a banana and allows me to take up work opportunities in China in future and go for mission trips)
12. Play the piano and violin again – need to get rid of the rust even if it means lessons again.
13. Save up for a trip to New Zealand to visit my sister and catch up with old friends (sheep).
14.Get fit enough to join a walkathon or marathon.
15.Visit old friends who I have not seen for years – make a trip to Penang and Miri16.Reunions – throughout the year
17.Age gracefully18.Be adventurous – try new things, explore and experience

19.Read more books

Miles and miles away

2008-12-31T16:50:00.017+09:00

A dear friend of mine - Caroline recently reminded me how I'm "miles away from the brown prefect's uniform of St Teresa days". So true indeed -it suddenly just dawned on me that even college
and uni days are now of the past. What more the times when I was Primary 3. Am I old?

I was blessed to be off work today so I can get myself sorted and to have ~~some~~ lots of "me time" to ponder and reflect on the past year - "emoness" alert

Let's see- where shall i begin?

New Year’s Eve 2007 - seafood delight at my favourite Top Spot 'Bukit Mata' back in the comfort of Kuching with my parents.

Still without a camera - only my trustee webcam

Yummy salted prawns

Missing Midin - have eaten enough of broccoli, carrots, celery, lettuce and tomatoes

One year later (New Year's Eve 2008) - alone in the comfort of my Perth home, blogging (unbelievable) and no seafood.

Tonight some friends are going to have dinner before going to watch fireworks display in Burswood but I've decided to start the New Year with some sleep - well at least that's the plan.

Yesterday was intentionally good fun. It was a good change of atmosphere as opposed to serving grumpy depressed customers who did not seem to be happy that it’s almost New Year’s. WHY?! Anyway, I was out for Korean dinner with 7 other girls at To Be Gi before rushing off for a "late night" movie at 9.15pm.

We enjoyed watching ~~Brad Pitt~~ "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button" which had a 2 hour 40 minutes running time which very unfortunately took longer due to a faulty projector but it was definitely worth every cent of the $10 I paid although I had to battle against feeling tired and sleepy from the day's work or rather the weather- it’s been warm if not hot of late and it makes me lethargic and gives me a very unnecessary headaches AND makes me want to eat ice cream.

The best part was being able to stretch myself out over 4 seats!

I have found a new interest in Corrinne May's inspirational songs - melodious and so pleasant. Here's one of her songs "Journey"

It's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you

Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong

I know I will falter
I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you

Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why
I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through

Cause it's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on Calvary
Beneath those stormy skies

When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feels like everything is out to make me lose control
Cause it's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you
To you

Randomness

2008-12-28T21:59:00.019+09:00

Oh the thrill and excitement of being random ! Such an opportunity came knocking on the door of my quiet life the weekend before Christmas.

The condition for some fun and adventure was ideal. I had the weekend off from work and it was also the last days with my flatmate before she left Monday night.

Friday night - dinner at some place new to me and catching up with friends over bubble tea in Northbridge after weekly cell meetings. Not a norm as I usually leave as soon as cell finishes having to work on 6.30am shifts the next day.

I came home to an invitation from my flatmate to accompany her to Burswood Casino of which I accepted.I've never been to one so I was curious to go for a look see and it was so much fun just watching adults play big people's games. My favorite was the wheel of fruits.
It was so exciting partly because Perth is usually quiet after 6pm and there's really not much to do at midnight so really, being in Burswood that was alive and vibrant at an unearthly hour was quite an experience.
Saturday - slept in for a bit ( heavenly). I have been the driver most times this year except for rare occasions when I was absent minded- locked my car and house keys in the house just as I was leaving for an event sometime this year or the time I left my car keys in the car boot after putting my groceries in.

Otherwise, I'm usually in the driver's seat but that day, I was offered to be driven in my flatmate's cool new car

and we went to Karrinyup Shopping Mall enjoying the beautiful sceneries along West Coast highway.
which was another first for me that weekend and discovered Big W - departmental store that sells for less. We sinfully enjoyed a packet of X'mas Doritos Corn Chips.

We then headed to Beaufort Street in Northbridge and I had my first visit to the art Gallery of Western Australia
of which I thoroughly enjoyed the "Earth from Above" outdoor photography exhibition. I marveled at the beautiful pictures - truly amazing so to speak.A sample picture of a mangrove swamp in Voh amongst the gorgeous collection of photographs.
We also enjoyed a walk down the street where there were flower wholesalers selling various flowers - so fresh and pretty at affordable prices.
At night, after sitting down to a good home cooked meal, Alison and I went on an adventure! We went looking for two finalist homes in a competition that were competing for best decorated house to a jaw dropping extend all in the name of Christmas.

Alison was the navigator and I- the driver. We found the first house in Thornlie and was overjoyed. It was reported that this house attracts approximately 1000 visitors every night. I will let the pictures do all the talking.
singing bear and penguins...

We tried looking for the second home in Bibra Lake but unfortunately there were some complications and we got ourselves lost of which we only gave up looking for the particular home an hour later.

Sunday - dressed up for Christmas service at church. My passengers that morning were not my usual in fact one of them was a new friend I made that day itself. Sylvia was my new China friend and I wouldn't have guessed she was married.

There was a mini petting zoo especially for the kids. I thought watching the adorable kids were so much more fun than observing the lazy animals. I miss my kindergarten home full of kids and their noise. Although they do get on your nerves sometimes and drive you up the wall most times they really warm your heart in their cute little ways. It's also a joy to see them grow up so quickly but the flip side is being reminded about getting older.

All the girls from this family attended my mum's kindy one generation after another and now they're all so grown up *tear* Even my sister has grown into a fine young lady and my mum still looks as young as ever.A friend was generously giving out his collection of soft toys that Sunday. Unfortunately I am not much a fan of soft toys so I had them given to Isabella who happened to adore them.Shopping with Isabel that afternoon - hunting for gifts but to no avail. Our trip to the market was more fulfilling before sending her home in Woodvale. All of which are not usuals.

Monday- sent Alison off at night.

One of our last pictures together. We made two new friends at the airport while queuing to check in and actually sat down over a drink- so random but they were indeed interesting new friends.

Lots of first in one weekend but it sure was one to remember!

Shhh its Christmas

2008-12-26T20:46:00.010+09:00

Life is rolling on and rolling by. This season of mine is about to draw to a close and a new one shall unfold coincidently at New Year’s. My story here begun one fine summer day in February 2008 and which lasted as long as one chapter through the pages of autumn, winter and spring. Now that summer is here again, the curtains draw in closing and I curtsy. I remember adjusting to the new life here and sooner than I thought, it’s time to pack the tangibles into lug gages and the intangibles deposited into my memory bank. Two weeks on countdown – it’s a sea of emotions.

It’s funny how at times last year seems just like yesterday. Christmas 2007 was one rare Christmas in a long time spent with some of my most loved buddies and dearest sister over awesome food in the comfort of home. It was simply meaningful.

Quiet, sweet and joyfully simple was my Christmas 2008. I saw my flatmate off Monday night, come Wednesday, I worked during the day – boy it was busy but the best part was serving less grumpy customers

who were mostly walking smiley’s which was my reward for 5 hours of standing, serving a never ending line of big shoppers which meant no time to run off for toilet breaks nor a sip of water.

Somehow it didn’t really matter that day – the joy of Christmas Eve works its magic giving everyone that special boost of good energy. I came home to make egg tarts singing “Gloria” hoping it will make them taste special before heading off for some Christmas fun with the church.

Isabel spent the night at my place so I had company on the way home at midnight as opposed to my journey to the party, roads were utterly quiet and I was tuned in to some slow Christmas melodies.

We comfortably tucked ourselves into bed and sat back to watch ‘’Love Actually” with a packet of Doritos that night. It was a sweet movie but not one which made me cry buckets. Christmas morning - made lunch and headed to Woodvale to have our lunch with Isabel’s Dad.

Initially, my Christmas menu was suppose to cater for Turkey as main dish but my ignorance had left me to do without it when I wanted to put in the oven and realised I had to thaw it for 36 hours prior to roasting it. Sigh. My heart shattered but thankfully, all was well in the end.

The rest of the day was quieter being on my own. The highlight of the evening was ‘Skyping’ with my family back in Kuching and watching them open the presents I sent them over the Webcam except that I couldn’t give those hugs.

My big sister sent me some love this Christmas in a box. Thanks Che!

There were also all these little gifts that meant so much but more importantly the gift of Christmas is having my sweet Lord every step of the way – an indescribable gift- the reason of the season.

Hope your Christmas was filled with all the love, joy and peace of the season.

With love.

she roars with delight

2008-12-11T22:57:00.009+09:00

What’s new? Not only I am vertically and horizontally challenged I am a handicapped – technologically that is. I’m quite embarrassed about it but it makes me appreciate my friends all the more! Walter helped me with my tag box today after failing to get one on my own although I tried and gave up time and time again.

Over the weekend, I went for a BBQ at a friend’s and I brought with me Portuguese egg tarts – one of the very few things I can make without burning down my kitchen that also has approximately a 50% success rate which in my books are considerably quite high although really, it’s nothing compared to those who were born with a gift for cooking!

I was born with a gift to love food instead! For some it is not a bad thing but personally for me it creates a roller-coaster weight saga. Not funny I tell you. On a brighter note, I guess to a certain extend I have to be thankful for being strong, healthy and ~~fat~~ fit.

It’s one of my favourite times of the year because all my favourite fruits are in season! I hit the jackpot when I came home last Sunday not with a million dollars but way better! 5kg box of fresh sweet cherries I kid you not! The best part was getting them at the best price by far!

They were not meant for me but due to unforeseen circumstances, they are now ~~all~~ for me to keep. Perhaps it is a sign! May very well be my calling to be a fruit seller? I have been eating my heart out so if you see someone on the street that looks like a cherry please do say HI! That would be me! Plump, firm and sweet! *ha ha*

If you receive cherries from me you know why! It is obvious I heart you! *winks*

I was in the city today to meet up with an old friend who is in Perth for a visit and I heard beautiful music playing along one of the main streets.

Guess what I found?! An ensemble consisting of five very talented young children were playing their tiny violins. I felt so ashamed of myself watching them play so wonderfully. Again, some people are just born talented. Sigh.

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Amidst all the silence of late, much has happened. I must speak with all the humility that is appropriate to my limited vision, but I must speak.

The process of waiting has never been easy for me personally but it is indeed true that faith does not grow in the house of certainty.

I came across a particular quote by Albert Einstein as I was reading Andrew Ho’s blog (http://1morehour.blogspot.com/) and I simply just love it! It reads “there are only two ways to live your life; one is as if nothing is a miracle, and the other is as though everything is a miracle".

Results were released slightly earlier than I expected. Theo was pestering me to check my results when signed in to MSN after coming home from work hungry and tired on one ordinary night sometime this week. I thought he was just pulling my leg but NO! He was right.

It only sunk in that very moment- I guess I am done with uni for the time being.

The time has come to move on to another chapter of my life- one of which will hopefully be an exciting journey of discovery, learning and maturity. One of which I hope will not cause me to end up looking like “crap” as described by a friend referring to my area of interest in Audit.

Unlike Christina Garcia - believe it or not she is a CEO of an entertainment mobile platform. Hot CEO! cool job!

The most overwhelming highlight of my week was that I didn’t just get my miracle but I would like to think I got miracles and for that I give God all the glory for it is not by my own strength but His.

My result was one miracle to be so grateful for. It looks like I will be part of my graduation ceremony in February 2009. I need a miracle not to end up at my ceremony looking like this.

Alie and I randomly decided to dine out in celebration of my results. Notice the size of the wooden spoon! It's a one person serving size!

We were so undecided that night on a good place but finally, we ended up at Wagamama!

While waiting to be seated I was amused by this sign and enjoyed poking fun at it by actually putting it into action......

Yaki Udon (YUCKY udon) was actually very appetizing!

The other miracle was receiving job interview offers scheduled for next month. Should start preparing!

Praying all will be well! Hopefully it won't be anything like this.

Do you what this means? Shopping! For my first work suit! *grins* but it also means causing damage to the savings account.

Dear Lord,
Thank you SO much for my miracles! I know it is You!

The Shack

2008-12-10T19:16:00.000+09:00

Ladies and gentleman,

Introducing one of my favorite reads by far! #1 New York Times Best Seller since June 2008....

“The Shack” by William Paul Young is simply incredible!

The title of the book is a metaphor for “the house you build out of your own pain”, as Young himself explained. Places you get stuck, you get hurt, you get damaged, the thing where shame or hurt is centered"

The book is best described as a journey of questioning and discovery. I was so blessed by this intelligently written novel that addressed various issues we so often struggle with in our world of pain and suffering.

It is a very engaging book! I was so engrossed even as I started on the first chapter and was so determined to finish it the same day or else cannot sleep!

I particularly loved how the author has such remarkable revelations. It gets you out of a rut delivering beautiful insights from a perspective which we many times fail to see on our own. It’s a must read!

More details at http://www.theshackbook.com/

Dear friends, its absolutely worthwhile! So you should look our for it and consider getting a copy! :)

Amongst the many things that really strike me as I was reading through the book, here are some I jotted down to share:

Pain has a way of clipping our wings and keeping us from being able to fly.
The past is only for a visit not an extended stay. Where do you spend most of your time in your mind?
The Great Sadness reduces the range of color down to monotones and flat greys and blacks.
Just because God work incredible good out of unspeakable tragedies doesn’t mean He orchestrate the tragedies
Grace doesn’t depend on suffering to exist, but where there is suffering you will find grace in many facets and colors.
Imagination is a powerful ability. But without wisdom, imagination is a cruel task master

So sit back, relax and unwind to a great book that will be a read without regrets! Would love to hear what you think about it.

Not so silent after all.

2008-11-30T20:46:00.000+09:00

I seem to be finding comfort in my silence. My mind is crowded. My thoughts are everywhere. The weight of it all is starting to bother me.

Yet, even as my flesh fails in its own strength I see a flicker of light. But even as it wavers, the challenge is to believe, holding on to the hope I have in Him and not to falter. Not now.

In the quiet, I find myself loud but unclear. It does not matter. It’s His still small voice I want to hear loud and clear and that is all that matters.

One day goes by, then another and another. If only life was a song we could play, pause, rewind and forward at our own discretion. But if that was so, life would be a complete mess simply because we are not God, we cannot be God and more importantly we need God.

Life is interesting, don’t you think? It’s a journey.

Roads are not as straightforward as we want them to be. We are bound to arrive at a crossroad from time to time, go uphills and down hills, through tunnels, quiet small roads and busy main roads. We take a few turns along the way, sometimes we lose our way, wander around for a bit to finally get back on the right track.

And sometimes we are forced in the direction we ought to have found for ourselves.

Sometimes, we reach a dead end but it does not deter us from reversing and trying another route. There are instances we have such a bad sense of direction we become unsure of the turnings we should make and can’t help but wonder if we’re going the right way.

There are times; we go places that are so unfamiliar, so foreign. While there is the fear of getting lost along the way, we tend to take it slower being afraid of missing the junction yet it is inevitable.Funny how sometimes we are too proud to stop and ask for directions. Wouldn't that save us a lot of unnecessary trouble? We always want the shortcuts but sometimes the shortcuts end up taking longer than expected.

No we are not always on the highway because some places have not. Yet there are those times we go through rough roads - roads with uneven surfaces and big holes. Occasionally there are the speed humps to slow us down.

When there is a downpour, we struggle to see our way with big mean raindrops covering the windshield impairing our vision of the road ahead. Even the wiper at its top speed can do so much when the weather is so bad. The road then is slippery and there is the possibility to skid in the curve when we go fast and lose our control.

What about those times the traffic light starts to turn yellow and instead of pressing on our brakes we hit on the accelerator or the times the light turns red and in our urgency we dash through. Most times we make it alright but when we aren’t so lucky, we collide.

Who says we never have a problem with green? We see green and take it for granted by cruising in our own sweet time until the light turns yellow only to realise certain urgency - we then try and make it across as quickly. Or times when the light turns green after a wait yet we fail to realise until we are awoken by loud honks.

Along the way, we are bound to have a flat tyre, over heated engines, oil dry, low battery and petrol tanks reaching ‘E’. Such distress but we become more careful and organised after. As the journey is long, no doubt we become fatigued as we go. Hence, it is important to know when we need to stop to rest and refresh or we would be in risk of accidents.

This is life. It is our attitude that makes the difference. Maintaining a proper frame of mind and positive energy is never easy. Sometimes, in spite of our best efforts, life just seems intent on bringing us down. Inspiration, however, is rarely far away - if we are but willing to look for it.

It is His grace that carries me through it all.

In the sky

2008-11-21T23:59:00.000+09:00

Argh, I feel as though I am 5 months ~~8 months~~ pregnant *rubs tummy* I have not dined out in a very long now so tonight was rather an exception - celebrated Sam’s 21^st. I'd like to think my fashion sense for cakes aren't as bad as my clothes. tsk.tsk.

It couldn’t have been a more perfect timing as it was indeed a reward to dress up to the occasion *grins* and to realize the utmost importance to stop being such a pig and a bum and start shaping up for Christmas.do you hear me Gloria?! Depressing. (Warning- Hazardous: Extreme vanity out of its closet).

told ya! ha ha and enjoy a fine meal *mmm* Food again yes. of which I started with this...

followed by this...( poor Rabbit)

oh then this! (Beef Dish)

and then this..(Bouillabaisse) A new word I learned today of which I had to be taught to pronounce it the right way by my French waiter after I told him, " Erm, can I please have the seafood one thanks. *smile (very important!) and pointed to Bouillabaisse on the menu *" But I think it was pretty obvious I am hopeless at such bombastic words! Rule of thumb: Pick the food with the most complicated name.

This is why we do Uni - to be able to read menus especially during the 10 minutes reading time before placing your order- stressful indeed

I think that's all I had- not! i forgot this! which reminds me of the need to master to art of prettifying food for obvious reasons - if you can't cook well like me, might as well learn to make the food look pretty. ha ha.

Enjoyed the company of dear friends

From left: Samantha, Sam's *ahem*, Paulina (Russian!) and yours truly

In the middle: Sam's sister ( Elizabeth)

The best part was being a surprise guest! I have not seen Samantha in ages even though we attended the same Uni and live in the same city except on opposite ends. It was lovely to see her again together with the company of others.

We were at one of Perth’s most spectacular restaurant – C restaurant in the sky being the only revolving restaurant in Western Australia which is located on the 33^rd level of St Martin’s Tower right in the middle of the city center. Its location catered for an amazing view especially during sunset.

At night, the city lights looked stunning from up above.

I came to realization today that I lacked the art of photography and hence, failed to capture the breathtaking magical experience at the C tonight. I am utterly disappointed.

Rewinding back to the morning, I woke up to a call to come into work to relieve a colleague who was unwell, stayed a little longer to relieve another who had to rush off for personal matters and was released from work late because my supervisor had forgotten about me.

The irony was that my initial plan today was to have a relaxing day off from work, sit down to a good book, and go for a nice long walk by the river, take all the time in the world to look nice for dinner and make it to dinner on time but no- everything didn’t turn out as planned. No I am ~~not~~ complaining :P

Well, these things happen- the focus was not to disrupt the peace and learning to adapt accordingly. So by the grace of God I did not stir up a storm on myself today even though it didn’t go according to plan *makes funny faces*

Nevertheless, all has been well, thankfully *in a thankful posture - palm facing upwards head towards the heavens*LOL.Looking forward to a better tomorrow!

Blessed birthday Sam and my dear friend all the way in NZ- Roger! Goodnight!

Strangely Funny

2008-11-20T01:17:00.000+09:00

For some funny reason I actually had to try so hard to sleep yesterday night and boy, it was frustrating! I must have either been too excited or too worried.

Funny how, even when you did not get enough sleep you can still feel like this in the morning.

Funny how post exams excitement have not kicked in but I'm sure it will sooner or later.

Funny how I was not feeling the like to do the victory jump and shouts of "hooray!" I know why. I always end up looking like this instead

Funny how at my age I still like to play with my food. Maybe *pause to think* my joy is expressed in a very different way such as this- ~~weird~~. Unique.

Funny how sausages cost so much just because they are "Spanish" but they are filling indeed. Don't underestimate - I did.

Funny how I still attempt to bake when it does not turn out pretty. Every. Time. Needing to inherit my mum's special gift but far from it!

Funny how I always blog about food ( Mum pointed it out).

Funny how the least significant things motivate you.

Now it’s time to pray for a ~~good~~ job and thank God for His sustaining grace. Do you smile when you pray? *ahem*

Smile friends.

Funny how this is not funny. at.all.

sweet and sour

2008-11-18T20:33:00.000+09:00

Aaaah. Tomorrow will be a significant day although every other day is a gift in one way or another. I will have a few thing less to anticipate from noon tomorrow until I decide to do uni again sometime in the near future such as:

driving to classes
finding for parking spots during peak hours
looking for the secondhand textbooks every new semester
buying bags big and strong enough to fit the books yet reasonably stylish
keeping a stock of stationeries
waking up early enough to pack lunch, dinner and snacks for a long day at uni
turning my car into a moving bookshelf and my own lil cafe
stressing over assignments and exams.

On the other hand, I will miss having the many breaks throughout the year especially the long summer break and reasonably long winter break. I will also miss the privilege of student concession for my travels and movie tickets.

If tomorrows paper goes well and I pray it would, I would then be able to sigh with relief. Also I could do the victory jump. Been practicing- jump then yay! or yay! then jump?! or should i yay twice then jump?

Moving on to happier things, my dear sister arrived home yesterday after her adventurous year far far away from home and its comfort. She braved it so well and have turned into a beautiful fine young lady ready to make her mark in this world. Amazing how we change little by little everyday, growing in grace as our life experiences mold us and shape us to be the person God has destined for us to be. She's back to enjoy all the good food and pampering from her loved ones as well as to polish up on her already existing gift of shopping.

I miss home too.

I on the other hand am still looking forward to the day I can board a plane and return home. In the mean time dinners will still either be on my own or with the company of my gracious flatmate on rare occasions as she is a hard worker so she is usually home from work after dinner.

I made dinner for two today. My stress reliever. The last supper before I have to say goodbye to Uni tomorrow.

Till next time :)

Walking with attitude

2008-11-16T19:42:00.000+09:00

"Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends leave footprints in your heart" ~E. Roosevelt~

No, this was not meant to be an emo post unfortunately. YAY! It's my favorite time of the year! 5.5 weeks on countdown to a merry merry Christmas. I love the joy of this season and not merely just December 25 itself but just about anything and EVERYTHING leading up to it-

Haha not babies if thats what you're thinking instead think Christmas tress and decorations, Christmas songs,gift shopping, sending out cards, Christmas meal plans and all the yummy goodies (Chocolates!!) I love it best when celebrated with loved ones. Oh the festive spirit and cheer! *jingle bells jingle bells jingle all the way*

I have recently rewarded myself with a little gift for no apparent reason. It was more of the need for some motivation following a personal Christmas goal I have set for myself and yet to achieve. I'd like to refer to it as my new little toy- uber-cool, and rather sophisticated for someone like me who is technologically challenged!

It's a lightweight and compact motion sensor that detects vertical movements of the body which are expressed as steps taken during walking or running. It is activated when when the foot hits the ground producing an impulse that transfers to the case. It can be worn in a variety of places (pocket, bag, around the neck, clip it to a belt etc). It has been regarded as the tip of a health promotion iceberg here in Australia.

Ladies and gentlemen *drum roll* Presenting to you my Electronic Pedometer! TA-DA! *claps claps claps*It is disappointing when the count barely hits 10 000 steps after 9 hours of work on a day that started as early as 6.30am - sedentary lifestyle indeed. time to step up my game!

This is what pedometers used to be back in the days they were invented by some genius. An old mechanical pedometer
My lil' toy may look the least significant but it does wonders for something it's size. It counts the number of steps (regular steps) and aerobic steps (physical exercise that helps us to stay healthy- continuous walking with more than 60 steps per minute), duration of aerobic walk, calories and fat burnt, walking distance, 7-day memory and has a time display.

The goal for long term health and reduced chronic disease risk is 10 000 steps a day (8 km). For successful weight loss should be between 12 000 to 15 000 steps and to build aerobic fitness we should make at least 3000 aerobic steps per day.

I was blessed to purchase mine at half the price! Such value for money! Hopefully it will continue to serve its motivational purpose as a tool to help me increase the amount of incidental physical activity accumulated during the course of a normal day. It is meant for encouragement to compete with oneself in getting fit and losing weight.
Time to step out peeps! Cheers to a healthier lifestyle! Signing off with love.

So close to feeling alive

2008-11-12T00:53:00.000+09:00

Life can still be beautiful despite your circumstances if we take the time to enjoy the simple God given pleasures of life...

By the grace of God, I survived the unsurmountable odds of my first two papers. The load feels slightly lighter with two more to go. I'd like to think I did not end up as one this dead fishes *sigh of relief*
Instead I'd like to think this represents me better *ahem* HA-OOH?

I love going on my walks. This is probably one of the most beautiful neighborhoods I have ever lived in. I usually head down View Street which indeed is a magnificent view of mansions with different architecture and pretty gardens.

It's an inspirational walk - I hope to own one myself someday *smiles dreamily* I would love to show you pictures of the gorgeous houses but I was too shy to take pictures of them *hehe* Maybe next time when I master enough courage!

I always enjoy my river route when I make my way back. I even have a favorite spot which I would usually make a stop just to marvel at its beauty.

The very end of this pier is my ultimate favorite.

Walking my way home.... A bit of an ascend uphill.
The rewarding view at the top of the hill

Spot my boat :)
The other side of the river
I'm hanging on - nearly there! Again I was too shy to be spotted cam whoring but I managed a quick snap anyway!

Lots of love.

HA-OOH!

2008-11-09T23:02:00.000+09:00

COURAGE is resistance to fear not absence of fear ~ Mark Twain
COURAGE is being afraid but still moving forward ~ZPH

The time has come! This is where I shall be tomorrow! Smacked right in the middle of the battlefield. Armed forces shall seek to defeat Marketing and Finance Portfolio tomorrow! HA-OOH! Taught never to retrieve! First you fight with your head, then you fight with your heart with God on your side and by His strength! HA-OOH!

I pray and I pray I shall be back with my shield and not on it! HA-OOH!

By the grace of God I shall survive the harshness of exam and return home with praise report! HA-OOH!

Looking forward to victory yes! HA-OOH! HA-OOH! HA-OOH! Prior to the battle: 1. PRAY2.Good night's rest
3. Morning walk for endorphins effect that magically relieves tension and irons out stress
4. Brain food : Dark Chocolate, Eggs and banana
5. Strepsils for sore throat relieve due to all the HA-OOH-ing

We do our utmost best and leave the rest into His loving hands! HA-OOH!".. but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength, they will soar on wings like eagles" - Isaiah 40:31

Signing off,
Commander in Chief * HAR? OOH!*

Same old story

2008-11-06T22:28:00.000+09:00

I wake up everyday this week to a new day and yet its the same old same old.

The alarm rings, I reach for my phone, stretch for my notes which I leave lying next to me from the night before, greet my darling Mathematical Economics a good morning and hold it close enough for a loving hug *yawns* While spending quality time with my darling, we agreed it would be nice to go for a honeymoon soon. Excited - I went browsing for cheap tickets! Unfortunately, our relationship will be ending shortly *tears of joy* so we decided it won't be a good idea after all. Instead I'm planning to make a visit home to see family and friends *double yay*

Highlight of the day was getting out of the house although it was to attend a revision class at uni BUT it also meant stopping by the shops on the way home. haha! Being absent -minded, I went to class with everything I needed except my pencil case! *slaps forehead* Now we wonder what was I preoccupied with. Hmm.The above? Nah *shakes head and squints nose* On a brighter note, at least I had cool notes written in blood since I didn't have a pen!On a less depressing note, I came home with some treats which made me realized how much I miss home :(

The oh so famous traditional Penang Tambun Biscuits - Tau Sah Pheah

Edamame (pronounced ed-ah-mah-may) are fresh green soya beans - a high style mini snack simple yet deliciously tasty.

Remind myself not to buy a duvet set for my bed. I found something more economical ....
I shall continue to rest my eyes upon the beautiful lines of Finance Portfolio Management - captivating! *smirks* Pimple cream dotted on face at the oddest places - no I am not stressed *pulls hair*Best wishes for Physics, sista! Lots of love!

High Five, Mr President!

2008-11-05T20:23:00.000+09:00

As the warrior princess continues in preparation for exam battle, she have not much of a choice but to camp home engaging in superior training and encapsulating a successful strategy until the time comes. The weather outside her camp has not been very gracious.

She feels so confined within the four walls of her camp to the extend of feeling imprisoned at times *sigh*
Things are not as bad as it seems. She gives thanks for the better ration which allows her to take a break from the grass in the hills with better supplies the Army now has although the earlier may have looked more appetizing...
and savor a change for a soldier must not go hungry or she might abandon her military responsibilities...She reassures herself every now and then, this will soon be over. She must keep focus and not abandon her mission for this last battle must end in grandeur.She is aware that it takes discipline to emerge victorious but there are times when she can't help but feel defeatedShe looks forward to the day when she does not have to wake up to this.
She knows she can only do so much but her ultimate best she must give -surrendering the rest into His loving hands and putting her hope and trust in Him who is sovereign.

High-five to the first African-American president in the history of United States -Barack Obama!

Uphill Battle

2008-11-04T22:06:00.000+09:00

The clock is ticking as I prepare to be an exam warrior.

It feels like an uphill run - exerting, striving, grueling, pushing off hard on every step, huffing and puffing and feeling the burn. It takes mental toughness and sometimes I can't help it but feel like this.
I wish I was an elite runner - an overcomer of hill phobia and being able to make peace with the dreaded incline and look like this instead.
Let us hope that the run uphill means gravitating towards excellence. They say remember to breathe - that's the key!

Studying makes me feel like this - bleks
Ending on a positive note, "If the mountain won't come to the runner, the runner must go to the mountain."

Rising above - sustained by His grace and strength. Learning to smile at the storm.Upwards and forwards, friends!

Mischief Night

2008-11-01T22:51:00.000+09:00

Coincidentally, I was part of a presentation for Cell Leaders' Appreciation yesterday night which required for us to dress our parts and it also happened to be Halloween day. I had my first experience hiring costumes but although it was not intended for Halloween, it gave me a feel of the excitement of such celebrations which are more common in Western countries. The visit to the costume shop was much fun as they had a diversity of apparels for almost every theme you can think of!

Initially, I was to dress as a red Indian character - Pocahontas. So I managed to put together a red Indian vest and a simple head piece as the one and only Pocahontas dress they had for hire was unfortunately a little too skimpy for Church - _ -
But at the last moment, there was a slight change in plans and hence, instead of Pocahontas I ended up role playing the Red Indian Chief and attempted to look like Red Cloud a war leader of Sioux in 1886 except....BETTER of course! ha ha simply because I was not as grumpy as he looked! I was the all -smiles Chief for the night :) In my days, being Chief meant having a personal chef, a policewoman and the Dark Knight to my aid.
One would assume dressing up in quite extraordinary costumes could cause a person to be such a poser by the end of the day. Not satisfied just being Red Indian I had to have some vain shots in bits and pieces of my friends costumes if not the night will not be complete! ha ha! Having had so much greens of late I thought it would be a good idea to borrow Cowboys hat so I can be COW-girl for one brief moment!

Future Plans: Might consider joining the police cadet so I can saman you! and win policewoman of the year he he!Always wondered what it would be like to be the cool engineer visiting sites! Hmm clearly I was amazed at the progress of the construction under my supervision. Good job people!

Batman (to the Joker) : "You wanted me. Here I am". During the nights, I am the Dark Knight, believe it or not.

Without a doubt, it was rather eventful and certainly entertaining although it was a night I discovered how vertically challenged I am a.k.a. short *sigh* Can't quite do much about that but I might still be able to do something about being horizontally challenged.

Ta!

Simple recollections of those days (Part 1)

2008-10-29T22:34:00.000+09:00

Today I helped a friend print some pictures and it made me realized I haven't printed any pictures myself since the beginning of 2008. My family used to take lots of pictures and have them printed every so often which leaves us with an extensive collection of albums back at home. Since I was presented with my very own personal camera before leaving for Perth early this year, I have been snapping away but had not printed any of my collection of pictures partly because it is uploaded on Facebook or stored away in picture folders for viewing instead of keeping hard copies of it. But as I was looking through the pictures I printed for my friend, it hit me that I actually miss looking at printed pictures and being able to have them on walls or in a photo frame. Note to self : Get my favorite pictures printed soon.

Looking through my own collection of picture folders, picture after picture stirred a sentimental hunger in my heart accompanied by sweet memories of the past. Here are some to share:When we were very much younger, living under the same roof and attending the same high school
3 years later - Our last moments together before we parted different ways. The best of times with my gorgeous little sister (Vic) who has grown into an incredible young lady ready to make her mark in this world. My heart aches being apart from her and missing her every single day!

Back in those days when we were in school as early as 6.30am and having to survive the hot and humid weather in our uniforms. 3 years after -Indah still as beautiful as ever, yummy sundaes and without our uniforms. Sushi cravings and great company - Daphne long time friend and an inspiring one indeed! Latest inspiration from her is to run! Chinese New Year 2008 were one of the happiest moments! Friends that brighten up my world!
Miri would have never been the same without these wonderful people! Kawan-kawan tersayang! Friends who makes the world a better place! Love them to bits and pieces! Tribute to Stan buddy and his hat! He had my back during our days at camp serving our National Service call. One of my favorite shirts! Way to go Liverpool on their latest victory and triumph! More to come! Stay tuned~

Credit Crunch Bites

2008-10-28T22:47:00.000+09:00

How much do you think this would cost? I just finished an oak leaf lettuce yesterday which meant salads for lunch and dinner for an entire week which was already an accomplishment. I thought there was no way I would be able to finish a whole lettuce all by myself before it rots away in the fridge - but I did! Today, I saw this bunch of lettuce gourmet at the local IGA selling for $1.39! And it looked so pretty and so big which is certainly value for money! It's even bigger than the lettuce that lasted me a week! It is so big it could not possibly fit into the plastics they had so I carried it around as though it was a bouquet of flowers! IF I had to get married on a budget all in the name of love or if there would be another financial crisis then, I might consider one of this as my wedding bouquet! Ha Ha! Okay, maybe not green but the purplish ones might do the trick! I think I am starting to look like a lettuce myself having had so much of it and more to come.

I am nearly finished with uni *sigh* Today was my last day of classes! I can't believe it myself. Time flies doesn't it? All sorts of thoughts running through my head. There are many uncertainties but I shall continue to trust the Lord for the future that awaits me.

Little bundles of bursting brilliancy

2008-10-26T19:41:00.000+09:00

Day light saving commenced at 2am today.

When peaches came along, blossoms and downy creatures took heart, while pears gave shape to artist's dreams, plums plumbed new depths and one mango is never enough - such are these gorgeous fruits that make up a sweet combination that make you endeavor a busy market scene.

After contemplating whether to make a trip to the Subiaco fresh food market today just before it closes, I finally did all for my love of mangoes at the very last minute. By the time I got there, I found myself in a crowd of people, being pushed around and stretching my short arm as far as possible just so I can reach for the bananas that were selling for 99 cents per kilo and mangoes for $2 each. Bargains! Amidst the noisy crowd, I heard a lady shouting repeatedly "$1, $1! Very cheap, very cheap!" - a call I could not ignore. So I braved through the busy crowd just to see what I can get for $1- mind you, very cheap! I got a whole bag of cute little mandarin oranges for $1.

By the time I came out of the market alive thankfully, I was ready to head home with enough fruits to make a fruit basket and more! Strawberries were only $2.49 for a 500g punnet, there were nectarines and peaches too! Funny how some of the joys in life are made up of the least significant things! I remember Mum when I have my mangoes and I remember Dad when i have my bananas. I sure miss them!

While enjoying the drive home, I caught someone staring at me from the car next to me but being the careful driver I am *lol* I had my focus on the road but this someone was still staring and so when I finally had the chance to glance back, I was a little shocked at first but was humored at what I saw. It goes to show how attractive I am *laughs* A hot guy- not! In fact, even better ....

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Walking With a Limp

2008-10-26T00:19:00.000+08:00

This is my world within.

Never say never. I never thought I would someday blog but I sure was wrong.

Beginning is not only a kind of action. It is also a frame of mind, a kind of work, an attitude, a consciousness. ~ Edward Said

Blessed birthday my beautiful sister!

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